Our One Flesh Needs Prayer. - 08/22/01 10:15 PM
We are living separately in the same place. Physically, Mentally, Emotionally, Spiritually. She handles all the money and has stopped returning to the Lord in what is His. Most of the time, when I mention God, either God or I and sometimes both, get slandered. She is pretty much in control of the whole thing now ( My opinion does not count anymore.).
She had an affair 3 months ago. I think the guilt is weighing her down. ( I begged her to let me back into her life at the end of the affair. ) Her Grandparents and Parents both went through divorces because of affairs. I am beginning to realize, she does not trust ( tolerate, yes; trust, no ) men at all. She has a women boss and all, but one women co-workers.
She saw a secular counselor ( a women ), last night. She did not want to talk about it. So I let her have her space. Pray that God will use her women counselor according to His will.
We need Prayer for her recovery/healing and my peace of mind, strength, patience, Love for Her in our time of crisis.
It's amazing what goes through my mind, with the rejection and doubt, because of her problems ( And mine, I know I'm not perfect either. ). And I thought I was a Christian ( Still am, but all this other stuff comes from you know who. ). I need strength not to give in, when my personal needs are not being met in our marriage covenant of 23 years.
She is going through Menopause and a Mid-Life Crisis rolled up in one big dose.
Thank You, for your Prayers!
Yours in Christ, Michael