Digressing back to just about age ten. Soon my world was to fall apart, it was good not to know any sooner.
My first hero was my Dad. He was 6'4" tall, not bodybuilder muscular, not fat just tall and big. His hair was gray to silver and his eyebrows were slightly darker and bushy curling upwards especially at the edges.
His left leg below the knee was prosthetic. One finger was canted at the last digit where I had shut the car door on it by accident and broke it years before. I cried for a long time about that. He immediately forgave me and let me know it was an accident.
But now it was two days after my tenth birthday, it was a Monday October 9th 1961. Dad had not been feeling good for a few days and at age 77 his health was not so good.
Years of rough living, alcohol though given up five years before I was thought of, had taken it's toll; as had decades of smoking. His abdominal aorta was bulging in spots and leaking and he knew it was just a matter of time. In those days the replacement surgery was very new and dangerous and would bankrupt the family and take the house.
Having come close to becoming an MD at one time, he knew the outcome awaiting him.
That Monday evening Mom had went in to give him his shot, and the bed had a large circle of blood. He was not voiding urine, but blood and rapidly. Uncle Rastus was called right after the ambulance, and he came and took me to his house. I stayed with my Aunt Lucy while he went to the hospital. My sister was at work at the Biltmore Dairy across town.
Lois had, had an argument with Dad that afternoon and they had not had the chance to talk since, she never got to tell her Dad she loved him and apologize for her angry words.
I sat in the back bedroom at Ras and Lucy's and stared out the window from across the room . At 8:30 PM on the dot I saw my Dad's face briefly like a picture through the window. I knew with all dread that he had just died. It would be nearly ten years before I learned that the dead know not anything . I would carry false theories regarding what I had seen and knew in my heart.
When Rastus got home, I don't remember if told him Dad had died at 8:30 PM or just waited while he told me. My supposedly secure world crashed down, never to be the same again.
I do not know much of what happened with my Mom and sister the next few days. Life then, now seems a faint distant blur that almost happened to a kid I only faintly remember. I did not have the hope to see my Dad again. as little as I knew about God, seemed more than my family knew as a whole. SDA's had worked with my family unbeknownst to me, and one by one my family either rejected those efforts or waited for a more convenient season.
If they had responded to that, and followed up on it, their lives would have been so different and full of hope instead of hopelessness and trying to fill the void with other stuff. We could have known Him who is the Ressurection and the life.
If my Dad had embraced it, he could have brought my Mom over to it and sheltered my sister and me in that hope. He might have persuaded the rest of the family, I will never know I could only wonder.
Men, get right with God and bring your families with you. You are not made of Iron and Granite, what you suppose is secure may not be and time is not yours to command. My Dad knew his time was running out, but I never saw him build for eternity. Put things into perspective and drop away the unimportant stuff, get right with God and bring your family to Him and keep them there.
God is your only security and He is your only hope of endless time and success.
Not all my memories are happy and sweet, but may they all be turned unto eternal usefulness for someone. God did not depend upon a failing family to be the only ones to raise me. He stepped in too. He will for you also.
Jeremiah 29:
11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
12 Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.
13 And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.
14 And I will be found of you, saith the LORD: and I will turn away your captivity, and I will gather you from all the nations, and from all the places whither I have driven you, saith the LORD; and I will bring you again into the place whence I caused you to be carried away captive.
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Edward F Sutton